stillstand

the light above the desk hangs white,
his voice comes measured, fills the space.
you feel the armrest, cold and tight,
the room is real, locks you in place.
the clock still ticks. the weather grey.
the sentence comes. it’s here to stay.

die worte landen, ohne halt.
die welt haelt an, erstarrt und kalt.

stillstand! dein herz schlaegt hart,
bohrt sich durch mark und bein.
stillstand! dein puls rast schnell,
er treibt dich durch die pein.
alles um dich herum,
hat aufgehoert zu sein.
das haemmern bricht den raum,
sonst stille. und du, allein.

his mouth still moves. the words run dry.
the shapes remain but colour drains.
you see his hands but can't say why,
each thing that coloured space now wanes.
the words you heard come back in air.
the sentence rings. it finds you there.

the antiseptic's left the air.
you cannot feel the chair below.
his hands move on beyond your stare,
the skin finds nothing left to know.
the body breathes. a silent moan.
the sentence drives, into the bone.

tief in deinem kranken gedaerm
sitz ich auf meinem thron
an deiner qual mein herz ich waerm
auch ich bin gottes sohn

ich spring dir an deine kehle
und du kriechst wie ein hund
deine lebenskraft ich stehle
leck deine seele wund

ich bin die kugel in deinem fleisch
ich bin der dorn in deinem mark
ich bin der splitter in deinem schaedel
bin der nagel zu deinem sarg

ich werde pfaehlen dann dein herz
saug dir den atem aus
es ist ein viel zu kurzer schmerz
dauert tagein tagaus

ich bin die kugel in deinem fleisch
ich bin der dorn in deinem mark
ich bin wie eine splitterbombe
die ihre kraft im kern verbarg

there are thousand hurting voices in my head,
like a stroboscope that makes me mad.
it feels like a chime, some kind of stabbing chant,
mercenaries at their own command.

don’t disturb me! don’t you dare!
why sowed the seeds of terror?
you will regret it! be aware!
don’t start a fight with me!

every time I get up it all starts to shake,
like an air hammer kissing me awake.
it feels like a roar, some kind of nagging pain,
troublemakers that can not restrain.

don’t torment me! don’t you dare!
why sowed the seeds of terror?
you will regret it! be aware!
you should know better!

in the battlefield of cells, a silent fray,
where darkness creeps and hope begins to sway.
the enemy within, it multiplies and spreads,
infiltrating deep, where fear and doubt are bred.

in the trenches of my mind, we stand so frail,
a war within, we fight, hearts growing pale.
though the odds may taunt us, we'll endure,
with love as our shield, we'll remain ever sure.

in a realm where shadows slowly intertwine,
we grapple with a fate we can't define.
in a dance of darkness, uncertainty our guide,
we navigate the currents, side by side.

in the trenches of my mind, we stand so frail,
a war within, we fight, hearts growing pale.
battling shadows, though outnumbered, we endure,
we won't surrender now, our hope remains secure.

in this struggle deep within, where shadows roam,
a battle fought in silence, far from any home.
with every passing day, the siege takes its toll,
but deep within our hearts, a fire burns, a goal.

instrumental

set my course with trembling hands
no map, no guide, no promised land
the sea was calm, my heart was loud
chasing dreams beneath a cloud

a fire lit behind my eyes
full steam toward a paradise
one true soul, a kindred flame
not a game, no one to tame

but winds grew sharp, the stars turned grey
the tide of doubt pulled me away

fears arise, they strike me blind
crash the deck, invade my mind
drown my hope, distort the view
all I sought, was someone true

dropped the anchor, braced the pain
hoped to ride out love’s cold rain
but it dragged me down instead
filled my lungs with fear and dread

the compass spun, the course was lost
no more dreams, just counting cost
i called for help, no sound returned
the flame went out, the sails were burned

shades of solitude, don’t follow me
swamp of sorrow, don’t swallow me
storms of promise, don’t shatter me
waves of truth, don’t batter me

but winds grew sharp, the stars turned grey
the tide of doubt pulled me away

fears arise, they strike me blind
crash the deck, invade my mind
sink the heart, corrupt the view
i set out, to find what’s true

kalte mauern still und schwer,
ein herz verblutet, schlaegt nicht mehr.
die schatten tanzen ohne licht,
im spiegel siehst du sein gesicht.

kraft und schatten, tief in dir,
ein sturm der tobt, ein wildes tier.
kraft und schatten, lass sie frei,
im dunkel schreit die einsamkeit.

maschinen wueten ohne ton,
ein rhythmus bricht durch den beton.
dein puls er jagt die zeit voran,
ein endlos kampf in seinem bann.

kraft und schatten, tief in dir,
ein sturm der tobt, ein wildes tier.
kraft und schatten, lass sie frei,
im dunkel schreit die einsamkeit.

schritt für schritt durch glas und stein,
ein tiefes atmen traegt die pein.
dein feuer brennt trotz kalter nacht,
die seele lebt, nun neu erwacht.

kraft und schatten, tief in dir,
ein sturm der tobt, ein wildes tier.
kraft und schatten, lass sie frei,
im dunkel schreit die einsamkeit.

kraft und schatten, tief in dir,
ein sturm der tobt, ein wildes tier.
kraft und schatten, endlich frei,
im dunkel stirbt die tyrannei.

this song’s no prayer, no sweet parade,
I won’t march down your road of rage.
no list of debts the past has made,
they’re ghosts long gone beyond the stage.
no penance due for wounds once laid,
step out! step free! and turn the page!

stand up tall! get back on track!
hold your ground! don’t fade to black!
lock your aim! don’t raise that flag!
and don’t you dare look back!

take your stand! don’t lose the track!
crush your fear! don’t wear its tag!
lock your aim! don’t raise that flag!
and don’t you dare look back!

it’s ’bout the wounds that feed your fear,
the ones you nurse till they take flight.
the more you hide, the more they steer,
you fight the dark but fear the light.
and somewhere deep, the truth draws near,
the edge of dawn cuts through the night

stand up tall! get back on track!
hold your ground! don’t fade to black!
lock your aim! don’t raise that flag!
and don’t you dare look back!

take your stand! don’t lose the track!
crush your fear! don’t wear its tag!
lock your aim! don’t raise that flag!
and don’t you dare look back!

principles and discipline,
to me just empty words.
that‘s the taste of what's to come,
i’m the stain that hurts.

i give a shit on orders,
i don‘t care about rules.
i‘m a real disintegrator,
make you look like fools.

i‘m your inner harlequin,
tease you like a nasty pin.
pulling strings beneath your skin.
i‘m your inner harlequin,
with the evil grin, relentless sin.

i carve through bone and tissue,
rewrite your every cell.
like a cold precision hunt,
i’m your private hell.

make no mistake about that,
cause there will be no choice.
i am your stern custodian,
silence your small voice.

i‘m your inner harlequin,
draining all your strength within.
haunt you where your hopes grow thin.
i‘m your inner harlequin,
with the evil grin, relentless sin.

you‘ll give in to my pressure,
i put the screws on you.
and get you into hot water,
make my dreams come true.

i‘m your inner harlequin,
feed the fear you hold within,
this battle you will never win.
i‘m your inner harlequin,
with the evil grin, the rot within.

life crumbles like a burning leaf,
the wind it brings both time and grief.
a hand once warm slips out of reach,
we mourn in silence, never preach.

what once was red turns into grey,
and love gets buried in the clay.
but still we guard it like a flame,
and whisper gently through the pain.

when the sun goes down, we pray!
but the night won't turn away!
we watch the sky, and feel the fear,
‘cause the end is always near!
when the light is lost, we cry!
never ready to say goodbye!
dance with ghosts, and face the night!
‘cause death still comes in perfect light!

no god, no fate, no promised land,
just echoes held in trembling hands.
yet in the dark, we still confess,
a bond that pain cannot suppress.

when the sun goes down, we pray!
but the night won't turn away!
we watch the sky, and feel the fear,
‘cause the end is always near!
when the light is lost, we cry!
never ready to say goodbye!
dance with ghosts, and face the night!
‘cause death still comes in perfect light!

their names remain, though breath is gone,
like verses etched in dying dawn.
they shine like stars we cannot hold,
but keep us warm when nights get cold.